Procrastination

Every time I think I am getting a handle on this blogging thing, it gets away from me.

Okay, so I have had some medical issues come up to steal away my time, but that is not the only culprit. Thanks to a daughter who won't leave home my house is a cluttered mess. It is truly awful. With my medical condition I simply cannot keep up with cleaning up after myself, my daughter AND her dog.

My father always told me that a cluttered environment creates a cluttered mind. I'm not sure if the causality is correct, but I have learned through the years that the two certainly go hand in hand. When I have a clean house I have a clear mind, but when either the condition of the house or my mind slip, the other follows in very short order. Shortly thereafter procrastination becomes the order of the day as I don't want to face either the clutter in my mind or my house.

Keeping this short so I can get to work on the house.

Pushing strings

 I had planned on posting weekly and this is a bit early, but I will still try to post at least once per week. One of my new goals. Actually, this is an excerpt from my daily journal that I thought was worth sharing.

Bouquets

A little bit about me.

I have always loved bouquets, from formal designs to a handful of weeds given to me by one of my children. Now I have a different kind of bouquet, and I am learning to love it.

I was born with Asperger's Syndrome. Even though I wasn't diagnosed until I was an adult it was always there. I started mental health counseling when I was in first or second grade and continued with it until tenth. It did nothing to help me understand myself, but was strictly about making me fit in, putting this square peg into a round hole. The problem with that is the peg will never fit correctly and trying to make it fit only damages the peg. When I started learning about Indigo Children things started to make sense for me and I began to repair the peg. I still haven't found that square hole for me to fit in, but that's okay.

Several years ago I was diagnosed with Sjogren's Syndrome. The first real indication, for me, was the vasculitis staining on my lower legs.  Funny thing is, that is actually my most recent 'official' diagnoses. So I began treatment for Sjogren's and Lupus, because the blood tests showed a connective tissue disorder as well. Since then the Lupus has shown itself a couple of times with symptoms exclusive to that disorder, also a diagnoses of RA was also added.

This is my bouquet, and I am learning to love and embrace it. Before I have always played games with my attempts to improve my health, not I have to get serious about it. Working with diet, meditation, supplements as well as the medications that are prescribed and realizing that I need to go forward in a holistic manner. Everything needs to be addressed, mind, body and spirit.

I've quit fighting things because "what you resist, persists." By accepting my bouquet, and loving myself without judgement I know that I can keep all the symptoms at bay and have a wonderful year.

New year, new me.

On January 1^st, I decided that 2016 is going to be my best year ever.

This morning it's hard to believe I wrote that line just a few days ago. Not much has happened since I wrote it, and perhaps that is the problem. I keep thinking of things I want to write, write entire paragraphs in my mind, but never seem to have time to write them on the computer. Things I want to do that haven't gotten done. Some started and paused, others that are waiting for time and attention to even begin.

Honestly, I don't think it will be overly difficult to get back into the state I was in those few days ago. The most important thing to remember is to treat everything as a whole; mind, body, and spirit, and to that end I choose to make goals this year, not resolutions. Think of the work resolution. Re – solution. The first solution was not correct, or complete so it needs to be redone. I think I prefer goal setting.

Another reason I may have felt extremely positive several days ago, and less so now, is because I am an empath. When everyone around me is excited for the new year it tends to rub off. The last few days it has just been my daughter and myself, and my daughter is unhappy most of the time, and that tends to rub off on me as well.

In any event, this year I am making goals to set new routines. As part of this I am glad to have found Brian Tracy's 14 Days To Success challenge. I am collecting the steps so I can refer back to them throughout the year, and I accept that some of these one day challenges will take more than one day to complete, at least for me, but it is still a solid guide. https://plus.google.com/u/0/s/%2314DaystoSuccess/top